Re: UK Denying Treatment to People for Being Offensive

This is terrifying to me.  Putting aside the issue of crimethink, I was stuck in a hospital (and later nursing home) for a number of weeks because I required 24/7 palliative care.  Between the pain itself and the incredible amount of Dilaudid they had to keep circulating through my system even as I slept, I was completely out of my goddamned mind.  I couldn’t make my own medical decisions because much of the time I was delirious, and even when I seemed alert, I had very little grasp on what was happening to me.  (I refused food for a full two weeks, all the while complaining that the nurses were starving me.)

My short term memory was shot (I ended up being blessed with permanent amnesia), and I was an absolute fucking bitch, screaming all sorts of abusive things at every female who came in contact with me.  (Yes, just the women, apparently.)

I didn’t know what the hell I was doing.  I’m normally the world’s most charismatic patient, but between the pain and the drugs and the trauma (both physical and emotional), I was an absolute hellion to the poor people at the hospital.  (From what I understand, the nursing home staff deserved me.)

I didn’t have any mental health issue to help account for my behavior, and it wasn’t until I was readmitted (a few weeks after my release) that they realized the extent to which my “medically-induced psychosis” had influenced my behavior.  (One of the palliative care nurses confided in me that she’d assumed I was just a bitch.)

So yeah, the idea of being abandoned to that kind of suffering and ultimately left to die of shock both terrifies and angers me.

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